At the age of 36, my life was flipped upside down. I thought I had life figured out...I followed all the rules, went to college, got a good job, exercised, had a lot of friends, and loved my family. But in September of 2022, I reached across my body to hand my partner a pen and noticed something was off in my breast. By the next morning, I was on the phone with a nurse telling her I had a kiwi-sized lump in my breast. I was told that because of my age (36), overall health (worked out regularly and no serious health concerns my whole life), and no history of breast cancer in my family, it was likely cystic fibers that would clear up in four weeks. Four weeks and two days later, the lump was not gone as the doctors had suspected. This kicked off the most arduous three weeks of my life as I went to more appointments and scans in those weeks than the rest of my 36 years combined. And with every conversation, things just seemed to get worse and worse. By October 12, the final diagnosis was determined: aggressive stage IV breast cancer with metastasis to the lymph nodes in my underarm and liver.
Because the cancer had spread to various parts of my body, western medicine can't use surgery, chemo, or radiation to try to remove it as it would likely just travel back from other places where it was living in the body. I started a treatment protocol that puts me into medical menopause to stop my body from creating estrogen & progesterone which cuts off the fuel source for the cancer cells. I also take another pill daily that tries to disrupt the cancer cells in order to stop them from spreading any further. And the great news is that from the very beginning, my liver has been functioning normally which was closely monitored with blood tests. The doctor's hope is just to stop it from spreading and growing further.
I knew literally nothing about cancer prior to my diagnosis as I was the first of my close friends and family to experience this. But after diagnosis, my brain went pretty numb for a bit. I didn't know how to process most of the information so I just got quiet and focused all my energy on the present moment; practicing gratitude for the things I knew I had going for me: the doctor never told me I was dying, I felt totally fine physically, I was surrounded by my amazing family, and love and support was pouring in from all around me. I also had somehow dodged chemo and surgery which I thought were inevitable in any cancer treatment.
From the very beginning, I couldn't help but wonder why this was happening to me? Why me? Why now? What did I do to deserve this? And what does my body need to heal? I have taken radical responsibility for my cancer and have journeyed far beyond any spiritual realm I have ever tiptoed near in the past. My path has taken me from overhauling my diet, to learning about epigenetics and quantum physics, to sound healing, to deep breath-work, to cold plunges, to meditating, to forest bathing, to yoga, and back again!
Kasier believes that I will be managing this cancer for the rest of my life with the daily medications that I'm on. I know differently. On every scan since diagnosis, my cancer spots are shrinking or disappearing. I know deep in my soul that I am healed, and it is only a matter of time before my CT scans confirm it! I am experiencing more joy than I ever thought possible in this life! I often have to ask my partner "is this real life?" I'm living in a state of constant awe and gratitude. I have a new mission and purpose in life to share what I'm learning in order to help as many people as I can to prevent cancer (and other physical illnesses), improve mental health, and hopefully heal our planet in the process.
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